June 24, 2008

Just want a quick pollie. Which sounds better, Point Negative or Pandora's Box? Please comment back.

June 7, 2008

I had my heart broken today. JewelsOfDarkness and I were supposed to hang out this weekend, but instead had to fuckin avoid me and go to the next piss poor excuse of a person. I feel like she kept me at her side until she met someone new, and tossed me aside. As they say, use it, abuse it, lose it. I decided to not let her back in my life. She will only fuck things up for me even more. She's no longer worth my time; she doesn't deserve me. I am better than her.
But you know, I think I kinda went overboard with my anger. I told her new boyfriend to screw her STD-infested c***...Yeah...I admit I went too far. I apologized to her, and when I did, somehow she became grounded. I kinda laughed.

Just awhile back, I went bowling with one of my mom's friends. Her daughter was smokin' hot. Her name's Taylor. She's about my age, likes the music I like, and yeah. I won the first game, but then they had to put up the bumpers (she had a 6-year-old bro). Those things had to screw with me! Plus, they couldn't get any gutterballs. But I had fun. I was able to meet someone new.

All in all, I was severely disappointed in one of my greatest friends. But I got to meet some new people, so I guess everything kinda worked out. Love you all (I'm not gay)!

June 3, 2008

As I wait for the new Disturbed songs to become downloadable for Rock Band, I type this journal entry up to bring you news. The band's name is instead Point Negative (c), not Simfonik. Simfonik will remain in existence, but as a techno metal side-band that will intertwine with Point Negative (a.k.a "*-" or "PN"). Honestly, I think this journal entry's name sounds really good for a song. Oh well. Just thought I'd left you all know.
Also, the downloadable songs will be Indestructible, Inside the Fire, and Perfect Insanity, all from Disturbed. ^^

May 18, 2008

Well, you may have seen it, maybe not. But I'm starting up a metal band. I've been waiting for a long time to see if any of my friends wanted to start one. Thank God we also got the right things. Now I'm waiting for the talent to pour in. Ha ha ha ha ha...Anywho, Yeah. I'll come up with samplers hopefully soon. I'm so happy! ^^

Also, I haven't decided if we will put the songs in my Zelda game, which is going well.

May 10, 2008

I should've made a journal entry earlier, so here it is. On May 4th, I went to my school's play. The first night was great. The second one kinda sucked.

On the second day, I bought my love (JewelsofDarkness) flowers and gifts (some that I stole...) before the act. Then the unexpected happened. I saw her ex there. I was kinda worried.

I enjoyed what was good enough in the play that night.

After the play I saw my friend and her ex fighting. I decided to leave them alone, considering I guessed it was about their relationship.

After eating some pizza, I got to see her again. I asked what that was all about. "I'm sorry, but apparently I have a boyfriend now," was all she said. It TORE me apart. I stormed out of the auditorium, wishing it was dream.

The next couple of days were fuckin hell. I couldn't see her after the weekend for a while (she's moving), making me seriously lovesick and depressed. I could only open up to her friend, who opposes her of their relationship (like I do). I couldn't trust anyone else.

I finally got to see her either on Thursday or Friday. We talked about it, she repeatedly told me sorry, though she had no reason to be. I told her how I felt about her bf and how he's not the best person for her (he doesn't "seem" to care for her but only for sexual requests, like their Truth or Dare games).She tried to tell me the complete opposite. . . . . . .

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Just yesterday I realized I had a necklace stored away. Luckily during that time I had to draw something for her friend. I played the "Hold Out your Hand and Close your Eyes" game. She couldn't see the necklace; it was hidden behind the drawing. I slid it into her hand and gave her a kiss on the lips.

When she opened her eyes...she saw the most beautiful necklace. So she says. I put it on her (at this point I'm literally shaking; I was nervous) and told her "I don't care if you're going out with your ex. I'll do anything I can to get with you." What became slightly ironic is she said she became guilty. I bet it was the kiss. Hehe...*rubs knuckles on chest*...jk. And now she says she's a bit confused on if she loves me or likes me. All I care about is that I made a point in her life.

Then, something horrible happened. I don't want to give the details, but let's just say it had to deal with what I did. I'm sorry love. I am forever in your debt.

Overall, I feel like I should've asked her out a while ago...Now I don't know if that's going to happen. I don't know who to turn to.