April 25, 2008

It's been about a month since I am no longer with Jessica. Admittedly I never previously announced it because it would break her heart. But now I have. We had our faults.
Well, I am currently single. I love her, but I don't want to get back with her. It's complicated, and I don't want to get into any details.
Currently, I am still continuing Old Memories but am also starting a side-story of something completely different. I don't have a title yet, only because I'm on the first chapter. Lol. Well, y'all have a good day now! I'm going to play my guitar! WOOHOO!!!

March 14, 2008

Sorry if I haven't been on for awhile. I got caught up in some stuff. But guess what? Progress for Winds of Chance are going smoothly. The first two areas took me awhile to make, considering they're going to be quite big, but I finally finished those, so I'm moving on to the third and final part for the game's official demo. So yay!

March 1, 2008

Uhh...For all who read that last journal (which I deleted), I made a mistake. I did NOT break up with my girlfriend. She was, let's say, sending a message in a wrong way. She now and always has been looking out for me, but had some questionable ideas to further our relationship. I just wanted to clear that up with everyone.

ANYWHO, I am still continuing the Old Memories story and Winds of Chance game, Thankfully. So, woohoo.

February 18, 2007

It's been more than a month since my last journal entry, and through this past month I was able to approach my goal with slight ease. The Legend of Zelda: Winds of Chance is going at a slow speed, considering my computer is in the garage, and it gets cold in there during the winter. I postponed my Old Memories story, which I should not have done. I've been having some friend issues lately, dealing with my school friends and my girlfriend. I haven't been drawing lately; another problem summing up my penultimate suffering. Sometimes it just feels like I'm screaming in fire, is all. I live in pain and no one is around to hear me, either because I can't make a sound or the fire is covering it up. I don't know. All I need is some company to get me through this rough patch.

This past Valentine's Day I was able to hang with my girlfriend, which I was really anticipating. A little while after she came over, we went to my school friend Zach's house for a quick visit and he said some stuff that put Me and my girlfriend in a questionable situation. Even still, I love her to death and I am willing to die for her, but I am afraid she does not believe me about what Zach said.

Well, here's what happened. At the end of school I was talking to him when I raised up my girlfriend into the conversation. I don;t know why, something that had to deal with Valentine's Day. Anyway, I had a good day and I started to joke around; the same with him. I told him we (My girlfriend and I) kinda fooled around and, I guess he kinda took it the wrong way. When Zach met her, he asked her if we had sex yet, and that sparked the fuse. She's been kinda edgy with me and can't get over the fact that I never meant it to be something that actually happened. I'm too young to have sex, and I'd rather wait, so why are my girlfriend and Zach "ganging up" against me?

And also, I had a crush on another school friend; her name was Angell. I've asked her out twice and both times I've been turned down. My girlfriend think I'm going out with her as a second option. That's not true. Ever since I met Angell she kinda had the monotonal, machine-like attitude. I somehow kept pushing that fact aside and let my false heart do the talking. After one of Angell's dillusional selfish thoughts spilled out, I realized that she wasn't good enough for me. I had made a mistake in letting my heart alone do the talking, so I turned to the person who trusted me for me and never cared for herself: Jessica. I cared for Jessica alongside with my other friends for a long time. I realized that Jessica was the right person for me because she is no false image like Angell. She's the real deal, and no one's ever appealed to me in a righteous way but her. And I'm proud of her.

But she's nearly accepting me and I think already I may have already fucked up my life as it is. It was a goddamn mistake for me to ask out Angell and every day I curse and punish and loathe myself in hatred for myself because of it. And so, I ask anyone who can lift my spirit high, "What can I do to save myself from becoming a hellish mess?" Please, I ask any and all people who care for me. I am neck-high in burial ground and I need someone with the right shovel to dig me out.

January 2, 2008

At the start of 2008 I will be making a whole new story including some of my friends' characters (up to their permission) along with my very own. The three main characters will be Renes, a 14 year old boy who is in a living hell as his entire upper right side's flesh has vanished and all that remains is bone, Eleina, a 14 year old girl who supports him during his hardships in life, and the third will be another artist's character. Please let me use ANYONE's character for it, as it will be up to anyone's part. If you want to take part in it, please request it to me via note and I shall decide who it will be.

Oh, and the story will be in comic form. Bleza, please don't get mad. This story will be put up along with our Zelda comic.